Please…

Posted in All My Rantings on December 5, 2009 by tzeshuen

As much as I love having my web age viewed, but I think this guy deserve it better.

I don’t care if you ever come back, but please do view this web page at least.
I swear, it might just be the best web page you have EVER visited.

http://www.akiraenzeru.ro/

Please view it in fullscreen as well.

Thanks!

The word ‘But’

Posted in All My Rantings on December 2, 2009 by tzeshuen

The word ‘but’ is a very intriguing and useful word.

You see, for all the ‘but’ we always used, it happens in a sentence to something else.

BUT! We never used it in a statement on ourselves.

Here’s the idea to find out more about yourself through the use of the word ‘but’..
There is always something about a person BUT… ya.

e.g. Drew is a great guy but he has a small dick.

Yes, exactly. This ‘but’ could be the only thing in your life that could make you better.
As much as its hurtful, it really might work.

I really wished for someone to ‘but’ me as well, but I’ll leave that to a few person whom I’m closer to..
Oh boy..

Funfact!

Posted in All My Rantings on December 2, 2009 by tzeshuen

I never knew about logcakes except the fact that they looked like a log.
I always thought it was just an ordinary cake that looks like one.

And sooooooooooooooooooo,

No, i’ve yet to try it either.

Its boring.

Posted in All My Rantings on December 1, 2009 by tzeshuen

Its all so boring without any money. But this isn’t the biggest issue right now.

More test coming up even though most of them are after the Christmas period.
Frankly, I’m looking damn forward to Christmas and I want it come sooner…

I don’t think that ever in my life, my whole 19years on earth, that  I wanted Christmas so badly.
It was usually wanting CNY badly.

But hold, 2010 CNY may just be very different, so looking forward to that as well.

Noticed how I’m thinking about the future a lot?
I think I’m in a rush to fast-forward my life. Which only mean that, the current me isn’t doing so well…
I wonder how is future me..

Hello.

Posted in All My Rantings on November 30, 2009 by tzeshuen

Hello People…

Hi new friends and old friends alike.
Hi to the polytechnic friends i made for the past 2 years..
And hi to the friends i knew back in secondary school.

I was 2 very different person during these 2 time period.

You could say that this is some sort of a test of character and on how each would  do better in the current society of  the “studying” period.

During the time when i was in secondary school, i was always serious and hardly joking.
I do not entertain small talks and i walk at my own pace and do what is only needed of me.
Yes, I was anti-social.
Piss me off, and i can see yourself getting stared at so hard that you just wanna punch me. But you couldn’t, because you know deep down inside, I’m as angry as you are and the fight would be ugly.

Currently in polytechnic, i know the importance of being friendly from my year1 sem1 classes.
I was too much of a smarty pants back then and pretty much got myself hated for that.
After on, i cut myself back from being too much of a smarty and interact more instead.

Unfortunately, I cannot balance either side so i chose to kept with only one.
The down side of being only concern on relationships is that, i’ll do what its required to make it work.
If they want to be smarter and better than me, i say go ahead.

Acting stupid because i can’t joke is one way to walk the comedian route.
Its more important to joke rather than to know it all.

How many of you actually manage to figure this out?
A person is not as simple as they are.

It takes forever to build on a relationship and a second to ruin it.
Think about it.

What lies behind their character.

If you wanna joke, bring a tone into it or I’ll take it as it is.
Conveying tone isn’t simple, you need to do it well or just suck it up and avoid saying ‘misinterpreting’ , because when conveying of tones is concerned – it’s usually the speakers fault.

Always consider the past and present before speaking of what you may call the, ‘future’.

Excuses.

Posted in All My Rantings on November 29, 2009 by tzeshuen

They say the people who acts differently around different groups of people, are having a mind of their own which contains complicity which not many could comprehend.

That’s may perhaps be because that we do not like not knowing what we are seeing and talking to.
Denying of what we do not know and accept what we see as it is.

There is this girl, haunting….
Comes and goes. I don’t know whats in her head.

But I wanna know more and its’ usually case like these when your gut feeling gets stronger, telling you…
“you’re in for a deep shit..”

I hope she places a flower for me if it happens.

Think back!

Posted in All My Rantings on November 28, 2009 by tzeshuen

I figured that new year is coming and i have not made a lot interesting post.

So here, I shall input a few of the friends i know whom are close to me, about one of the events which happened between us.
Be it awkward or nice or bad. Because they are ALL in the past.

Valerie Ong
One day, she felt very upset over a certain thing which i had forgotten. So i decided to skip school with her and catch a movie at TM.
We sat at 969 from Woodlands and when we boarded the bus, i chose to sat behind her.
I later move forward beside her thinking, “its a long journey, what if another guy sit beside her? That will be bad.”
When i sat beside her, she said “Why you sit behind?”
And i replied, …..
i forgot.

Bryan Chng
After school, we usually take a ride home on bus 962 from Sembawang.
I usually bullshit a lot on our way home.
But that day just seemed wrong to do so, but i wasn’t sure what i said or did.
But i lent him one buck during that ride and because we argued, he returned me the coin in silence.
I never returned it back either.


Ye Min Hun
There was this girl i met online who happened to be in the neighboring school.
I liked her back then but i didn’t know how she really was.
She wanted Min Hun’s number so i gave her. Not long after, they got together…
I was pissed with him and during art lesson, i went over and bang him shoulder-to-shoulder and just walked off.
He knew why it happened of course.

 

Melody Loy
We met in kindergarten back in ‘96.
She held my hand and i brushed it off.

Mark Heng
There was this instance he played basketball real violently….
wasn’t sure what the reason was.

Lee Ling
During the first few weeks of classes, i never really knew her but was sort of attracted to her?
So on this one day, she wore this PVC skirt and it looked pretty awkward to me…

Alec
We went to watched TWO movies together after not meeting up for a long time.
Evagelion and i forgot the other one. It was my longest time in the cinema in a day of my entire life
.

Alinia
We always sat at this corner of the class during lessons.

Lynn Chunyawongsak
During this one art lesson, she purposely threw bits of eraser at me and it landed on my pants.
She swept it away for me though.

Edmund How
This center-parting boy never allows me to copy his homework during primary school.

Oon Jie Min
That very awkward sitting pattern of her with that red shorts underneath it like forever.

Germaine Chng
Met her online on this IRC chat channel.
She called me ‘dear’ and i never replied her because i thought she was calling someone else.

It appears that i’m getting lazy with my explanation and thinking.

 

 

I hope i get the chance to say this…

Posted in All My Rantings on November 28, 2009 by tzeshuen

“I’ve stopped chasing something there, because it was right here by my side.”

 

 

Complete random.

Posted in All My Rantings on November 23, 2009 by tzeshuen

Try to hear my voice in your head while reading.
Here goes..

When is it that you feel as though you need to do something and wanting a change?

When is it that you ever felt as though you are pushed to a corner and forced to move, only to move so that it will be good for you?

How is it like feeling as though you cannot do much, and that your best is just not enough?

How do you feel when you think you did something incredible but gain no recognition?

What is it like when ideas come to your mind and you know well it work, but your gut is telling you that people would not believe you?

Do you often think what will happen to you if this certain phase of your life is ruin?

What exactly will you be in your prime time?

You look at a person who has failed in certain aspect of his or her life, do you look worried thinking you might end up being the same person that you’re seeing?

How confident are you that you may be like any of the average joe?

Do you look at your friends and wonder how great they are doing?

Ever thought about how you may contract a illness in your later years?

I’m just being random here, thinking about stuffs that many may have thought about.
Its nothing much related to me, but saying all these, its equivalent to me thinking as such.

I can’t wait to see how my future will be. I know i messed up all my way onto where i am right now..
But I don’t intend to make a change for it either…

All the best…

I…

Posted in All My Rantings on November 22, 2009 by tzeshuen

want a job on weekends, sat or sun or both; long or short hours.

Anyway, my Professional Profiling module is cleared and next up, more tests and FYP.

Every single time after watching Family Outing, i really like the way they enjoy themselves in all those places of different villages. I want!

A house of my own, thats all that i’m ever aiming for….
just that simple.

Cars? Credit? are of no importance before a ‘house.’